I realized last night that it has been 10 years since I walked out of my father's home to begin my adult life. I left for so many different and some silly reasons but in my defense I was 18 and not thinking with my brain that day. I remember packing my car with the important things; clothes, make-up, t.v., and stereo. Did I know where I was going? Not in my wildest dreams did I know where I was going but I knew that it pointed in the direction of freedom, well at least I hoped it did. I ended up staying with friends for a few weeks and then getting my own apartment. I worked two jobs while trying to go to school and just two months later I was dropping out of high school because something had to give and my pride was too much to go back home. I didn't even plan on being gone that long because I stated that in the letter I left my father but being out of that house was freeing to me. It was hard journey, shortly after leaving my senior year I got married and went down a very hard and trying path for the next 10 years. Now I have a wonderful 7 year old and I know what it means to dig your heels in and fight like hell for what you want and believe in. I finally got my GED in 2004 and then my Associates in May of this year. You see though I lost my passion the past few months and forgot who I was in life. I went back to college this fall even though I knew in my heart I didn't want to and now I am feeling the same way I did when I dropped out of high school, overwhelmed. I know leaving now will mess things up to where I will have to do some finagling if I would ever decide to go back. At this point I feel as if I am satisfied just having my associates and working the job I have because in time it could leave to bigger and better things. I really haven't worked like I should this semester and completing with passing grades at this point would be a miracle. I know I alone have to make this decision and be happy with the decision I make. But I think it's a sign when I feel relived when just thinking of walking away from school and just focusing on work and M. I want to know who I am again and not who I am trying to be to please people. I got the education I needed to at least give M a good life not over the top but better than what it was. I look back over the past decade and I want to know who I am again and what makes me happy and what my passion in life is again.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
Menu Plan Monday October 29th
Monday: Straganoff Hamburger Helper
Tuesday: Leftovers (Class Night)
Wednesday: Samhain Meal (Pork Roast with Potatoes, Corn on the Cob, and Rolls)
Thursday: Chapel Hill Pork and Venison Sausage with Rice
Friday: Fish Fillets, French Fries, and Hush Puppies
Saturday: Beans and Cornbread
Sunday: Shredded Barbecued Chicken Sandwiches and Vegetables
Dessert: Pumpkin Pie
Monday, October 22, 2007
Menu Plan Monday
Monday - French Toast with Fried Eggs
Tuesday - Leftovers (Class Night)
Wednesday - Tamale Pie
Thursday - Broccoli and Beef Stir Fry over Rice with Egg Rolls
Friday - Skyline Chili
Saturday - Texas Renaissance Festival
Sunday - Barbecued Ribs and Baked Beans
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Another Day Another Outfit
Today I wore yet another wonderful outfit. The brown shirt is from Target and the pants are from George (I bought those in the spring) and the fabulous shoes are from Target as well. I love how fall it looks and despite being in the south of Texas it's October and that means fall to me. Stay tuned tomorrow for an outfit I am sure will please. (Click on each image for a closer view)
Monday, October 8, 2007
Outfit #2
Today I wore another shirt that I bought from JC Penny with my second pair of new jeans that are darker than the other ones. The jeans are St. John's Bay Stretch Bootcut(when you finally find a pair that works you stick with it). Once again I had on my fabulous new knee high stretch black boots. With an outfit like this I was ready for work. Stay tuned tomorrow for another fabulous outfit. (Click on the picture for an enlarged picture)
Menu Plan Monday
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Fall Fashion Week
I went shopping yesterday for some new clothes and thought how fun it would be each day that I wear something new to post a picture of it. So I am kicking it off today with the outfit I had on and will do each day that I wear something new. I may be living in South Texas but I am willing it to be fall even if my attempts are in vain. This first outfit consists of a pair of St. John Bay's Stretch Bootcut jeans, a purple top from Fang purchased at Jc Penny's and my fabulous new knee high block healed boots from Target. Check back tomorrow for a new outfit, I will post each evening since 6 a.m. is too early for pictures.
